Mood: On top of things
Soundtrack: None
Quote of the Day: "Oh, igneous..." -Mel (for reasons unknown)

So I didn't do much but work most of the day. I'm really on top of things and it seems that Zac was just sick. That's good news. I did a lot of work and went to a decal that is being taught by the guy that I did my final project with for my hitchhikers class. I watched some eva and that professor posted on his website that I'll find out sometime this week if I got picked. Not much else new.

Mood: Tired
Soundtrack: None

I haven't been up to too much. I just did a lot of work today. I did all my physics except for one problem. I think Zac dropped out of geography either that or he is sick. I don't know. Not much else.

Mood: Relieved
Soundtrack: None

I did a lot of homework including a prelab question that took me a few hours. I went out to dinner at the thai place and went and got some milk. I'm so tired and so happy to have finished that problem.

Mood: Feeling good
Soundtrack: Death Cab for Cutie Plans
Quote of the day: I'm not going to baby you. You're old enough to smoke, die for your country, and star in porn. -My Math GSI

Today was pretty good. Tomorrow I have some work to do to get ahead. I found a cool dart game on myspace that I was playing. Other than that not much is up. I'm trying to decide whether to join a comic book decal or a isaac asimov one. The reason I don't want to do the comic book one is that you have to buy all these lame comics. Lots of DC garbage and fantastic four and stuff like that. I'm thinking of doing the asimov one. I played some tennis with clarence on the ps2 and helped him with some physics. Oh well, that's it for now.

Mood: Feeling Good
Soundtrack: Playlist of some of my harder stuff

Today I didn't do too much other than do homework. I did some exercising for the first time in a few weeks. I have a decal that I'm going to enroll in tomorrow in case i dont get the apprenticeship. I saw the movie 6th day last night around midnight. It was a lot better than i expected. I liked it. Other than that not much else new.

Mood: On Top of Things
Soundtrack: Evanescence Fallen

So today I turned in my application for doing research this semester and I also went to class. Nothing much new. We haven't done much of anythign at tall. Today I watched the 40 year old virgin and it was pretty good. Zac is in my discussion for geography and my gsi really doesnt seem to like the professor or care too much about the class. I also ran into bilaal and zuhair. I don't have much else to talk about because now much else is happening.

Mood: Tired
Soundtrack: Party Shuffle currently Tantric, followed by She wants revenge

I went to my grandmother's today and spent some time with her. This myspace thing is pretty cool. I really hope it helps me keep in touch with people. Sorry for the jump, I'm just in that kin dof mood today. Today I finished my application to do some research this semester since I can't really do it during the summer without getting started during this semester. I applied to do either some atom smashing or some supernova watching. Sounds cool, huh? except I most likely won't be able to do either but it's worth the try. I also watched some football and I had a weird experience. As I got off the BART train this guy that was leading around this handicapped guy in a wheelchair turns to him and says "in all the time that I've been 'working' for you, I've never heard you threaten anyone's life." That was just such an absolutely bizarre thing to say, I was stunned.... "if it wasn't for that horse, i wouldn't have spend that year in college."

So I don't know if I mentioned this but zax (typo somewhat on purpose [not really] because zax looks cooler than zac, don't you agree? [it's the second time this happend]) anyway... as i was saying. Zac is in my geography class with me and it looks like we're going to be in the same discussion section. Pretty cool, huh?

O well, I've got some reading to do so that'll be it for now...
Wait, that whole threatening to kill someone things was just so weird. I mean the guy didnt even look like he could talk. I mean he had a keyboard on his tray on his wheelchair. I mean you wouldnt expect stephen hawking to go around threatening to kill people unless he was like a mafia genius black hole physicist hitman. O well... now i have to go

Mood: Content
Soundtrack: Party Shuffle with some Jack Johnson followed by Pete Yorn right now

Last night I made a myspace account you can find it here. Go there. There is alos a link in my links to the right
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Other than that, not much is up. Yesterday I watched Star Wars Episode 3 and it was pretty good. Probably the best int he series. Today I talked to colin for awhile. Not a whole lot.

Mood: Sleepy and a little lonely
Soundtrack: None

So I went to my classes and not much happened. My physics professor has a way over the top italian accent. Today I found out that I can't really do that research that I was planning to do this semester. I'm considering putting this up on myspace so that some people will actually read this. O well. We'll see.

Mood: Relaxed and Content
Soundtrack: The rain pounding outside

So today was my first day of class and I found out that I only have to go to lab 6 weeks out of the year which is pretty good. I also went to my geography class and I liked my professor. I hope that I can get my section switched. Zac was in the class which is pretty awesome. I also did a bunch of sudoku puzzles. I really like them. I also went into the physics advisor's office and got some information. I found out that they recommend research after the second year. The problem is that right now I don't know anything about anything that I would be researching.

Mood: Excited about the new year
Soundtrack: Family Guy in the Background

Today I had list of things to do and I didn't accomplish a single one of them. I went out and tried to but was thwarted at every turn. Other than that I haven't been up to much.

Mood: Tired
Soundtrack: The Smashing Pumpkins Greatest Hits

So I'm back in Berkeley. I just finished putting everything in order for this year and I already picked up my books. For dinner I went out with my brother, mom, mel and my grandma to this place called Thai Garlic right next to my apartment. It is really good and we all enjoyed it. I'm pretty excited about this year and to be honest I don't have that much to talk about so that will be it for now.

PS I also got an umbrella.

So in other news. My finals went really well and I ended up getting really good grades. I got an A- in physics and an A+ in math. It was a mistake not to take psych for grade but o well. Next semester is going to be a lot easier. My only stress is making sure that I get set up to do summer research but we'll see how that works out. Currently, I've been studying Java and soon I'll be starting to learn Matlab. O well, I'm getting tried.

You can expect much more frequent updates now that I'm returning to school. That's it for now. I'll see you later

Mood: Tired
Soundtrack: Coast to Coast AM

Well, it's been a long time since I last updated. A lot has happened this winter break. I didn't get to do everything that I wanted to do this break. I really wanted to get together with some people from high school but I just didn’t have time. My Grandfather passed away on December 18th. It was pretty hard on all of us. I did a really good job of keeping myself together. When my dad told me I told them that I would just go get ready and started a bath. As soon as I shut the door I just broke down and cried like I've never cried before as the sound of the falling water kept that away from my mom. Other than that I kept myself really together but it was rough. When we got there he was still lying there. The previous night we had stopped by and he was already pretty far gone. He was barely conscious but when my grandmother told him that we were there, he raised his hand to wave at us. It was the first real sign of consciousness he had given in a while and it was one of his last. We stayed with him for several hours and then headed home. Before we left I kissed him on the forehead and told him that we all loved him. The next morning, my dad woke me up and told me. I kept thinking about the last time I talked to him and how he really wanted to talk to me. I think he knew that it might be the last time I saw him. He didn't suffer and he went surrounded by people that love him. Since then, to be honest I haven't stopped thinking about him and I can't help but feel he still with me. I am a scientist by mindset but I noticed a few weird things. Shortly after he passed, my silver amulet that has a picture of an angel guiding a child and the phrase "Deus te guia (God Guides you)" on it fell and I caught it. The next day, a Christmas decoration of an angel fell down while we were playing video games and it fell again on Christmas day and we found it when we came back. Also, after I got home really late one night, I sat in the car for a really long time thinking about my grandfather and about the angels that had fallen. I then went in and got ready for bed and when I went to put my clothes in the hamper in the garage I noticed that the motion sensor light outside had gone on and lit up the garage. Now I go in the garage every night and we have had that light there for maybe 5-8 years and this is the only time this has ever happened. All of these things are easily explainable as coincidences but to me they mean something. Maybe that's because they have to for me and I need them to but they do.

This break I've done a lot of cleaning and have tried to do a lot of nice things around the house, tried to be like my Grandfather was. He was the most considerate man I've ever known. I've met a lot of people and I love a lot of people in my life, but he was the only person I ever truly admired. After he died we went over to his house and one thing that I had to do was figure out what every key on his key ring was for and I just thought that it was so poetic that I couldn’t do it. Also I had to find Krazy glue (which I know he has) and I couldn’t. The whole time I kept thinking how easy it would be if he was still there. I went and made a bookcase a week later, over in his workshop. He would have been proud but he also could have helped me so much. He only saw my bookcase that I made for my apartment when it was in the back of the van. I could have made so much more that he could have seen. I never took advantage of all the knowledge that he had that he was so willing to give me. I remember once I asked him for a pocket knife and he gave me a spare. It stuck a little and I was practicing taking the blade in and out and was purposefully showing how much it was getting stuck in hope that my grandfather would show me how to fix it, but instead he just gave me his which I still have to this day. I also have a letter R that we made together one time when I stayed over at his house. He was a craftsman who knew so much. He never had a son to teach any of his knowledge too and I think that I was the closest thing he ever had. When I showed interest in tools and was old enough he bought me a toolset set and gave me a lot of his hand tools. I always have and will feel guilty that I never got serious about any of that and that I always took him for granted. He was always so strong. When we 81, he redid a large part of his roof by himself. During Chemo, he popped out a wall and hung a 10 foot joice. After Chemo, when we put in the wall in the front room he was the only one strong enough to pull out some of the bent over nails. He was the strongest man I've ever known. I thought he was immortal. There will never be another man like him and I can only hope to be like him. There wasn’t a lazy bone in his body. Right now, I think of him a lot and I can't think of a better name for my first son than Jess.