An Embarrassing Meeting

So today I went up to the lab and met with my mentor. I was really embarrassed because I looked like I didn't know how to do anything because I didn't know how to log in. I knew how to everything else, just not that because with my ssh, I login completely differently. Also I didn't know how to use this obscure program as well as he did (which he wrote!!!). Also this student of his from his last apprenticeship was there and asked me about my project and then asked me how I was planning to do it. I'm no good in front of people I don't know and I also hadn't gone through the effort of putting it into words (which isn't the easiest thing in the world). All in all, it took me about 5 minutes of stumbling in front of this stranger and my mentor that I don't know too well to say anything. I felt really bad and the guy probably thinks I'm an idiot. Oh well. It was probably the most embarrassing moment for me in the last few years (since guildenstern). I just came off as a complete idiot. Oh well. I know I'm smart, I just keep telling myself that and I hope that I can impress him with my work when I'm done. At least I don't have to combat any high expectations. You know how I am though, I keep going over this over in my head...
Also I forgot to tell my dad happy birthday which was more of a function of the fact that I don't know what day it is than me forgetting what day his birthday was. Oh well. It just fits right in with my day so far.

Mood: embarrassed
Soundtrack: None

Tuesday Morning

So I'm heading up to the lab in a little bit to talk some stuff over. Right now I feel pretty on top of things even though I'm a little lost in physics but I'm pretty sure that everyone is. Right now I'm slowly trying to figure it out. If I get one concept a day I will more than ready for the midterm because there really are about 10 and the midterm is in 3 weeks (including spring break). For math (which has a midterm next week) I feel pretty on top of things and good quiz and homework grades have been padding my grade for a while now. Not a whole lot of stuff is going on right now. That's it for now.
Mood: Good
Soundtrack: Live "Lightning Crashes"

Finally a Chance to Sleep In!

I'm feeling so relaxed right now. I'm on top of things. Everything is working out. In fact, tonight I'm going to a meeting to see if I could be a writer for a science magazine. Something really low commitment. Just a little writing each week and totally optional. I think it would be a lot of fun and an awesome thing for applications. Paul's also coming over tonight. Oh well, that's it for now.

Mood: Great
Soundtrack: Godsmack "Voodoo"

What a Wendesday

Today I spent 3 and half hours doing lab stuff, mainly learing some IDL tricks and planning how I'm going to do my project. I think I just might be able to get this done sooner than I anticipated. Today I also learned that mass and energy are the same thing which is always a cool way to start your day. I have almost nothing to do tomorrow for the first time in a long while. I might go up to the lab to talk with my mentor. Oh well.

Mood: Relaxed... I know it's amazing
Soundtrack: Tool Lateralus

A Case of the Mondays

Today I had a really hard time getting up. It's been like that for the last few days. I didn't do nearly as much work today as I would have liked. Physics Homework took a lot longer than I expected and this weekend I didn't get much done because David came up to visit. I have gotten a lot of my lbl computer stuff all worked out and lately I've just been working to get acquainted with the system. I think that things are going pretty well in that area. I don't know, the week just began and I'm already looking forward to it being over. Things are quite a mess over here too. Oh well, that's all folks...

Will I Ever Get to Sleep In?!

Once again I couldn't sleep in this morning because at 8, Clarence's sister called me to tell Clarence to call her. I just wish I could get some sleep. I got screwed on Tuesday because of that stupid safety class thing. I've been working on my Geography essays. I'm almost done. I'm done for now. I'll come back to them later. I'm getting a little burned out because I haven't gotten much sleep lately. I couldn't sleep well last night because I was having a panic attack. Oh well.

Mood: PLEASE LET ME SLEEP!
Soundtrack: iTunes playlist Heavier Stuff

It's Still Only Wendesday?!

So today I did a lot of work. I even went up to the lab for 2 hours but my advisor didn't show up because there is a DOE review this week. It's alright. I got work done while I was up there. I also found out that there is a LBL bus stop really close to my apartment (like 20 feet). There were also a few earthquakes today. Nothing bigger than a slamming door but my professor had to turn it to physics when one occured during physics class. He also made a connection from a slow clock to relativity. He also mentioned that he will go and tell people in Italy that Californians laugh when there are earthquakes. I also got my midterm score back and did really well. Oh well, that's it for now.

Mood: Tired